First Date

We really hit it off.

After 2 hours of talking nonstop, it was time to go.

Then it got weird. There was no "Well, I'll see ya later," or "I'll call ya" or anything.

Certainly no kiss, just an awkward hug.

Finally he asked, "Where'd you park?"

"Around the corner."

"Ok, well drive safe."

He sent me an email an hour later with a link to something we had talked about.

I know my job situation was a deal breaker. I could see it on his face when I brought it up. But I felt I had to be completely honest with him. 

Two days later he emailed an apology for not contacting me and said he had to leave the state for a funeral. 

At this point, it's ok. Way earlier, before we met, he had  made a funny remark about not a lot of choice in the produce aisle. He was referring to a lack of available and interesting female prospects. I acknowledge I'm not only a very green banana, but I haven't even been loaded onto the boat yet. I'm such a green banana, I'm still on the tree. But I'm a banana and dammit, I'll ripen someday.

In the meantime, I wish things had worked out where I could contact him next time I'm going to be near his neighborhood. I've been wanting to see a local band that plays in the area at least once a month, but don't want to go do that alone. I still regret not seeing them the last time they played at this particular bar. I wish I had someone to join me. He did mention that being single, he doesn't get to go out with other people all that often, so when someone asks, he jumps at the chance. Even without a romantic spark between us, it would have been fun to go out with him again just as friends.

When we were emailing and chatting online - before meeting in person - he read through a list I had written of things I like. I wasn't sure how to refer to my last item on the list, so I just wrote "Sex Positive." He commented on the list, saying he likes pretty much everything I wrote. When I asked if he understood what I meant about that last thing, he said, "Sure, it's good."

I was referring to the Center for Sex Positive Culture.

So he thinks I'm saying I'm open minded. 

Yes, that's very true. That's not entirely what I meant though, so I decided to shut up. No point overwhelming him.

Back to the date. It doesn't matter if he blew me off or not, I'm a green banana. 

This was the first time I had been on a first date with someone intent on actually dating. Almost all the other guys I've met had been married and had just one particular goal in mind. This is great, but damn, I'm lonely. I knew seeking someone to hang out with and/or date would be different from trying to find a FWB, but I have a feeling it's going to be a lot harder to find someone to casually hang out with and occasionally go to CSPC with me. 

Back to the drawing board.